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Battle Songs

Exasperated and weary from battle I attempt to stand. I am fighting a duplicitous battle, a physical and spiritual battle. Daily I struggle with morning paralysis and extreme weakness.

Physically, I battle a yet-to-be-named neuromuscular disorder. I am waiting for genetic testing to be approved by my insurance so I can name (and slay) this beast. Steading myself, I rise to stand, cautious to have a hand, chair, or hand ready to grasp. My legs wobble like a foal learning to walk. It seems as though my legs have forgotten their purpose.

I reach for my marred sword. I cannot raise my arms; the disease has me frozen in a myotonic state. I hold my battered spiritual sword and pray. I’m weary, worn, and beat.

This second battle is spiritual. The Enemy is attacking me. I can’t see him, but I feel the effects. While I don’t know the name of my neuromuscular battle, I do know the name of the one instigating this second battle. His name is Satan, the Enemy, the serpent, and the Accuser.

Each day, I pull my red chair God’s throne, touching knees with the Almighty. I hear these battle songs echoing around me. Donning on “full armor of God” as referenced in Ephesians six, I seek the Lord’s face and strength for both battles.

Here are a list and link of my favorite battle songs:

Victor’s Crown by Darlene Zschech

Rooftops by Jesus Culture

Overcomer by Mandisa

It Is Well by Kristene DiMarco and Bethel music

No Longer Slaves by Jonathan David and Melissa Helser


Break Every Chain by Jesus Culture

I Will Bless the Lord by Byron Cage

Till the Walls Come Down by Martha Munizzi

Holy Spirit by Kim Walker Smith

Even though I continue to battle, it is well with my soul.

Keep marching!

~April Dawn White

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