I'm April
Turns Out, "Never Depend on Anyone" is Terrible Advice.
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Especially when your body decides to quit on you at 40.
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I did everything right. Good grades? Check. Pharmacy degree? Check. Volunteered at church and the community. Check, check, check. I followed the formula my mom drilled into me: Get good grades, go to college, get a good job so you never have to depend on anyone.
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And it worked. Until it didn't.
At 40, at the height of my career, my body threw me a plot twist nobody saw coming: Hypokalemic Periodic Paralysis. It's rare, it's unpredictable, and on a good day it leaves me weak. On a bad day? Partially paralyzed. Career over. Independence gone. The life I'd built on self-sufficiency? Turns out it had a structural problem.
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The illness didn't just take my physical strength. It exposed the lie I'd been living with.
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Losing my physical strength exposed something deeper. Unbeknownst to me, I'd been performing for God the same way I'd performed for everyone else. To be "good enough." I tried to earn His approval, working to stay safe through my own effort. My faith had a hidden crack in its foundation, and it took paralysis to reveal it.
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Since my 20s, I'd clung to Psalm 63:8, "My soul clings to you, your right hand holds me upright." I thought I had to do the clinging while God nodded in approval from the sidelines.
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Through the devastation of a rare illness, God whispered a truth I'd somehow missed: "April, I never asked you to hold yourself up. I promised MY right hand would hold you."
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So if you've been blindsided by loss or chronic illness, or life's most unwelcome plot twists have shattered your carefully laid plans—pull up a chair. If you're white-knuckling your way through each day while everyone around you lives their best life on Instagram, yeah, I see you. If you're exhausted from trying to be enough while fighting battles nobody else understands, welcome to the club nobody wanted to join.
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I call myself a "hope dispenser" because as a pharmacist, I used to dispense medicine. Now I dispense hope. As an author and speaker, I genuinely believe God wastes nothing. Not our pain. Not our paralysis. Not our most devastating plot twists.
If your life feels like it's been repurposed without your permission, there's room at my table.
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~April
Statement of Faith
I believe the Bible to be the inspired, the only infallible, authoritative Word of God.
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I believe that there is one God, eternally existing in three persons: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
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I believe in the deity of our Lord Jesus Christ, in His virgin birth, in His sinless life, in His miracles, in His vicarious and atoning death through His shed blood, in His bodily resurrection, in His ascension to the right hand of the Father, and in His personal return in power and glory.
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I believe that for the salvation of lost and sinful people, regeneration by the Holy Spirit is absolutely essential.
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I believe in the present ministry of the Holy Spirit by whose indwelling the Christian is enabled to live a godly life.
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I believe in the resurrection of Jesus Christ.
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I believe in the spiritual unity of believers in our Lord Jesus Christ. *
I affirm both the Nicene Creed and the Apostles’ Creed.
I attend Parkway Wesleyan Church and my first book is published with Ambassador International, a Christian publishing house.
*As adopted by the National Association of Evangelicals